"We Are In A Holding Pattern Of Sorts"

I haven't blogged this week for good reason.

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Mom took a turn for the worse on Saturday and today we (my siblings & extended family) wait in a holding pattern of sorts.

In a nutshell: Due to CO2 build-up, mom coded twice and was brought back with CPR. Unfortunately, she's back in ICU, on a vent, on oxygen and according to the Doctors, isn't in any pain.

So we wait for heart and neurological tests to be repeated and we hope.....

Through it all, mom continues to look beautiful.

As for me, this has been the most difficult time in my life and makes diabetes look like a walk in the park.

I love her so much and seeing her suffer breaks my heart more each day. And I feel like such a hypocrite for talking about my broken heart, because when I see all she's going through -

I have no right to complain.