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What I Will......

What I Will......
The following is the result of a 3 minute free write exercise . I set an egg timer for 3 minutes and wrote down what I wanted out of my life. This is the result. I started out by saying " I WANT" and quickly changed it to "I WILL," because lets face it, I WILL is much more proactive and positive.

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What I want is to live to live this diabetes life and help others to do the same and I want to work in a job that puts me in daily contact with other people living with diabetes.

What I want is to be understood and to understand others.

I WILL live this diabetes life and help others do the same.

I will find and a perfect trifecta of a job that puts in daily contact with other people living with diabetes.

I WILL be understood by others and I WILL understand others.

I WON'T be labeled or defined by my faulty pancreas, but I will be inspired by what living with a faulty pancreas represents.


I WILL continue finding confidence and being inspired by my diabetes on-line community and I WILL continue to pick my self up by my bootstraps and inspire others to do do the same.

I WILL find love and happiness in myself and in others.
I WILL STOP seeing what I did wrong and be like Thomas Edison, who thought there was no such thing as a mistake, only lessons on the way to what works in life.

I WILL remember my past & learn from it for my future.
I WILL find love and have a family and you know what? I really believe that I will.
I WILL laugh more and cry less - But I will keep in mind that tears are important and are nothing to be ashamed of.

I will encourage others to laugh more and cry less - And if I have to do something silly to make that happen, then so be it!

I WILL learn and try something new each and every day of my life.

I WILL buy a house and make it a home.
I WILL see each one of my nieces and nephews be happy. The same goes for my friends.

I WILL be proud of myself and I want to be proud of those that I love. I WILL keep learning from myself and others and I WILL keep teaching myself and others.

I will continue having empathy, but I will continue flipping my Diabetes Bitch Switch whenever it's needed.

I WILL MAKE the media get diabetes right instead of continually getting it wrong - even if that means annoying the shit out of them. THIS MEANS YOU READERS DIGEST.

I WILL CONTINUE TO BECOME- And I that is a wonderful thing~

Violence and ConMed Drugs

Violence and ConMed Drugs
Antidepressants are not the only drugs known to cause violence. The anti-smoking drug Chantix, or Champix (depending on where you live) has also been linked to more than 100 reports of suicide, and 400 reports of violence. 

The drug users were associated with 18 times the number of cases of violence than an average person. Because of these reports, the FDA obliged the manufacturer, Pfizer, to put a 'black box' warning on the drug. This is what the FDA said about the drug.

“Chantix has been linked to serious neuro-psychiatric problems including changes in behaviour, agitation, depressed moods, suicidal ideation and suicide. The drug can cause an existing psychiatric illness to worsen or an old psychiatric illness to recur and the symptoms can recur even after the drug is discontinued.”

ASH, the anti-smoking organisation, with links to Big Pharma, recently recommended smokers to use this drug, and the Big Brother Watch website has brought my attention to this situation.

Left Hand Needs To Let The Right Hand Pick Up Some Of The Slack – At Least Where Diabetes Is Concerned.

I’m left handed- always have been, but since I grew up in a right-handed world, I’m ambidextrous out of both necessity and force.

While I write with my left hand (and bat and catch,even though I haven’t actually done those things since like, the 5th grade) my right hand picks up the slack in other areas.

Like scissors. When I use scissors I use them in my right hand- thanks to the fact that in nursery and grade school the teachers only had 2 green rubber coated left-handed scissors in for each classroom. I was impatient and didn’t want to wait my turn, so I learn to use the right handed ones and never looked back.

I poor coffee and use a spatula in my right hand, simply because the coffee maker, the graphics on a coffee mug, and the slant on said spatula were designed for those whose dominant hand is right. Go ahead, check your spatula and favorite coffee mug- you’ll see I’m right.

Mastery of cheese graters (the old fashioned kind with the crank) eludes me to this day – and my attempts at mastering the fancy cheese grater cause much laughter during big family diners.

Doorknobs and door latches are almost always on the right side of the door.

Don’t even get me started on my car. Everything including but not limited to the; ignition, gear shifts, radio & air conditioning, plus almost all other controls are on the right side.

I think that I’ve proved my point that the world is designed for right-handed folk.

Ironically, when it comes to fingerstick testing, I prefer testing the fingers on my LEFT hand instead of my right- weird, right?

Anyway, after years and years of testing on my left hand, all 5 fingers are riddled with calluses and drawing blood (even with popping two baby aspirin a day) isn’t quite as easy as it once was.

I’ve now made a conscious effort to test on my right hand. The lancet feels strange and maneuvering that ever so tiny drop of blood on a test strip with a right-handed slant is awkward to say the least.

I’m curious- are there other lefthanders (or right-handers) out there who’ve experienced a similar phenomena regarding fingerstick testing?

Do you have a favorite hand to test on?

If you do, is it your dominant hand?

Is Kelly ”k2” Kunik on to something, or is she just plain weird?

When Earth's Last Picture Is Painted


"When Earth's last Picture Is Painted," is one of my absolute favorite poems. I discovered it in college when I was reading an article in "Smithsonian Magazine" about Kipling while sitting in the Dentist’s office. It was so beautiful it made me cry. A few years later I was asked to read the poem as part of a shared eulogy at my friends father’s funeral. Turns out, it had been one of his favorites as well.

I lost a loved one this week, the funeral’s today and thought this would be a nice way to honor her.

R.I.P Aunt Betty, give Tommy, Lexie, Debbie, & Dadd
y each a big hug & kiss from me.


This amazing photo is courtesy of the Hubble Telescope. It's a cloud nebula and not only reminds me of this poem, but a Maxfield Parrish painting come to life and what heaven must look like, all rolled into one.



WHEN EARTH’S LAST PICTURE IS PAINTED
By Rudyard Kipling 1892


When Earth's last picture is painted

And the tubes are twisted and dried When the oldest colors have faded
And the youngest critic has died
We shall rest, and faith, we shall need it
Lie down for an eon or two

'Till the Master of all good workmen
Shall put us to work anew
And those that were good shall be happy
They'll sit in a golden chair
They'll splash at a ten-league canvas
With brushes of comet's hair
They'll find real saints to draw from
Magdalene, Peter, and Paul
They'll work for an age at a sitting And never be tired at all.

And only the Master shall praise us.
And only the Master shall blame. And no one will work for the money.
No one will work for the fame.

But each for the joy of the working,
And each, in his separate star,
Will draw the thing as he sees it.

For the God of things as they are!